Uncomfortably Numb...

I have been uncomfortably numb for quite some time no joy no sadness just this sea of indifference uugh this isn't living this is existing cant stand it this is so not me I'm letting my situation get the better of me... God this is not how i want to continue... For this record you are safe my entries are written for me not for anyone else just for sanity of mind my heart has been pulled pushed broken and healed but i have never given my heart to someone who has heart in his hand already when I'm the one who is for me they will be mine i will be theirs i have no desire to be one of many i want to be THEE only one...as it should be QueenyJMG