So alone ...In her fears

She was so alone in her thoughts in her actions ... She wore a brave face, flashed a big smile and talked a big game..

Yet  it was a nothing more then great acting. She deserved an Acadamy award 

She fooled everyone but herself, you can't lie to one self Pain has a way of making you aware ...brings the conscience of it all to your doorstep 

 And it gives no choice but answer 

If she could run she would yet she was aware problems run from will only follow to become even larger then previous 

Face your fear and move on.. Move past

Into nothing ...

She wants to fade into the nothing of it all . She feels like nothing she has nothing she thought she could control it but she's slipping falling back into the self created abyss the dark becons and begins to consume her. She fights it yet fails ... It overwhelms her once again please take this pain away release me from this sadness  take it away or take me away ...