Compromise...

How long have we compromised our Happiness ?Ourselves? We have done the obligatory thing by trying to work it out for the kids but is this really helping them by seeing us in this loveless marriage NO. it doesn't they are not fools they know what we are living .this lie nothing but a facade painted walls pretty plants pickets fences and porch signs that should read welcome to my lie...when will we be happy we need to take the step in the direction we Wish to go...COMPROMISE NO MORE...QueenyJMG

Fighting Demons...

We all have demons to fight I'm just sick of fighting other peoples demons i shouldn't have to deal with what is killing you inside face them head on acknowledge them or else how will you get past them to become victorious over them i don't have the strength and energy to fight your fights...man up already......QueenyJMG

Last night...

Last night i had to shove my emotions down i had to swallow my tears it literally hurt my throat to push them all down .i am not sure if it made me feel better or worse to not let him see me cry but all i know now is its pushing back in the direction i don't want to go,i just pray he doesn't kill me(emotionally) before i truly get to live.ugh sick of it all right now.I will be okay when the sun finally rises i need the Sun...QueenyJMG

I wake...

I wake with your name on my lips- i smile and think its going to be a good day ,i stretch & yawn as i look at the empty side of the bed i imagine you there- i smile and say one day, i rise and clutch my robe its cold when your not here -i smile and say i will speak with him today and the coldness will turn to warmth...QueenyJMG

Twilight...

I am somewhere between the here and the there in the midst of the early morning not quite awake yet still not asleep ,i hear the crickets still chirping begging the evening to remain so they might sing their song- as the birds of morning call for the sun to rise i see the white and purple flowers animated in neon as twilight surrounds me .I'm in a dream world,in the still of the night and break of day not here nor there....QueenyJMG

Making Memories...

When ever my Girls and I spend "quality "time together i always look at them and say ::MAKING MEMORIES :: because that's what i feel we are doing i tell them this is what i want you remember.I also say i know we have all been through some really ugly bad times but those are a vapor -distant ,gone ,no more i tell them they must acknowledge them but not to dwell on them Because those are not what define you . If we cant put those things aside it never gives us the opportunity to Enjoy all of the Happiness ready to fill our lives ...Be ready Be open Be hopeful of all the Good things waiting for you...QueenyJMG

Plan & Purpose...

I know God has plan and purpose in our lives Sometimes we don't see the bigger picture because we are not far up enough We sometimes hurt due to being unable to have what we want at that moment i have been down a lil' these past few days just wanting to cry and its okay to grieve as long as we rejoice in the things to come ...QueenyJMG

Contemplating...

Well i have been contemplating many things over ,there are so many issues yet to touch on which at this moment i don't feel like discussing and others that are common sense "why would i not " do that issues but as for now i feel my head is spinning... what ?where ?who? when? why?and how???ugh sorry got hit with a dose of reality ill be better tomorrow ..Queenyjmg

Things i do...

The things i do is for love nothing more i have all i need i don't need houses ,cars, jewelry. I need love ,kindness, and respect if you can offer these things to me then i will be a happy woman and i will make you a happy man...For things of this world aren't owned by you they own you...how many hours of the day did you have to strife to obtain those things? I am guessing too many ...Would you spend one hour working to give your loved one things or would rather have that hour to show your loved one how much they mean to you? Time cant be bought time cant be sold time must be cherished by young and thee old...its all we have.QueenyJMG

Venice Beach...

Had breakfast in Venice Beach yesterday morning with my Girls.God i love time with them the more time i spend alone with them the more i realize its time to take flight. We sat there on patio just basking in the joy of it all.I think we'd love to move out there Fresh start ,The carefree feel of it makes me smile it suits all of our personalities for sure.Well only God knows...what lay ahead for us...QueenyJMG