Last night...

Last night i had to shove my emotions down i had to swallow my tears it literally hurt my throat to push them all down .i am not sure if it made me feel better or worse to not let him see me cry but all i know now is its pushing back in the direction i don't want to go,i just pray he doesn't kill me(emotionally) before i truly get to live.ugh sick of it all right now.I will be okay when the sun finally rises i need the Sun...QueenyJMG