Unlovable..

Today she felt unlovable, passed by, forgotten ... A has been, use to be, a nothing more ... Heart hurt, stomached ached deep to the pit, mind saddened...

Soul numbed, spirit dead,hope gone ...

When do these feelings go away ...

Who will rescue me...?

Only she can rescue herself 

Sighs ...

You make sigh with the very thought of your touch, the kiss your lips Warm breath on my neck ,stroking my hair staring into my eyes uttering my name The smiles that linger...joy profound ,you do this for me...

Emptiness ...

There's an emptiness that hangs heavy in my heart a need a desire a void...

It's a sobering thought being alone 

I don't want things of the past but things of the future... Something beautiful something good and gracious 

I want this heavy weight lifted this thing that drowns me cut loose the very thought of you gone...

For whom do I cry...

For whom do I cry ? not for you not for I not for her not for he not for them not for we...Tears of ambiguity fall from my eyes 

For who do I cry ?

I cried for death I cried for love I cried for fear I cried for rest 

Love destroyed ... I cried 

She realized ....

She realized that she wasn't all the things he said she was she was more then that 

she heard ...she was ugly, she was worthless, she was good for nothing,she was stupid, she was a waste of time,she couldn't do anything right,not worth loving,she was hated... his words killed her soul, hardened her heart, made her invisible 

 Then she realized his words meant nothing he was the nothing anymore 

I tasted the devils tears but no more

I am ... I AM.... More then that