Epiphany moment

I sat there in the dark trying to figure out how I would be able to change you I cried at your insults as they were hurled my direction with every one of them that was spewed they shred what remains of this heart I stopped myself feeling the pain I thought why does it matter what he says he is not the compass by which I live my life he is not my guiding north star he is just the vortex of hatred i'm going to avoid. There are many many good souls that bring me home I can't change him but I can change me...I shall delight in all they good souls I'm blessed to know...and allow myself to find joy