Million miles a minute...

Right now my heart is racing a million miles a minute not sure why just trying to wrap my mind around things that have come to light.Some things are grand,glorious and exciting -Others are realistic,sad and inevitable.Yet regardless of either; a conclusion and decision will have to be made.I am ready for what lay ahead Good -Bad ,We can't have with sun without experiencing a little rain.However i know the sun will always shine and allow me to feel it's glory QueenyJMG

Inner Peace...

An inner peace is what i have being in your proximity i know we cant be physically close yet i feel this physical connection and know when we come together it will be grand & magnificent all fears,doubts,reservations will be put to rest the only issue that may occur will be in the leaving and the time spent being away from one another.Time & distance do not detour love ,it will only seal the bond held.I hold you,I keep you,I love you...
QueenyJMG

Missing You...

Missing time spent with you one day feels like years i look forward to the day of no more miles between .If we are meant to be together then a paradise is what we shall have ,all of our days.Time bring me near ,Distance dissolve,Days be kind in your absence,Let everyday move me just a little closer to you...QueenyJMG

Stay On the up side of things...

Been trying to stay on the up side of things even when it feels as if my world around me is crashing down ,- so ready to leave this mess.I'm sorry that life has brought me to this point yet i know from pain comes beauty out the ashes rises the refined beauty of gold & silver that is what i look to...the final product of all the pain & suffering and this too shall pass Smile with me, Dance with me, Sing with me for our days of glory shall be many and days happiness never ending,oh sweet future take me away past be gone - no more ...i long to bask in the joy of your presence...QueenyJMG

Thinkin...

My daughter called me asking for advice i am still honored & humbled to be the Mother of such a grounded child perfect no ...grounded ...yes.i speak for all of my Girls yet my eldest has had to bare the the burden sometimes of her birth order Christen i just want you to know that i am proud of you,i love infinitely i love being your friend ,your confidant, but most of all your Mother I LOVE YOU MY BELOVED CHILD... QueenyJMG

Waiting to Fly Free.....

I have been waiting too long to fly free my wings which had been clipped are now healed ,they have regrown into a more splendorous wing -my cage is still here yet i know where the secret key is hidden its just a matter of time for my flight to take place .I shall fly high and far with my flock.We shall be happy beyond all our dreams ,We shall soar as if on angels wings away from things that once held us here -Oh blue skies carry us away to days happiness may they be countless under your Vail of blue... QueenyJMG

Defeated ...ugh

Friday i have to admit i was feeling a lil defeated i hate that but i have to write about it just to "get it out" its amazing that some people can be cruel,heartless,and soul slaying in their words and actions i have learned to build this wall of armour around my heart to protect from thus said person.The only problem with that is ,we cant pick and choose who gets kept out at times. I do realize there are many more good people in my life then there are bad, So i reflect on that knowing i am more then what one sad individual says and know that what others say is much more worthy to resonate in my head & heart...QueenyJMG

Choice...

The only people who refuse to feel my love are those who choose not to accept i offer my love to everyone ,some is friendship love, other is compassionate love ,and another is romantic love i learned at a young age we are not invincible if we feel something for someone we need to let them know for fear that tomorrow may be too late. Live your days as if you were fulfilling a dying wish. When driving by the mountains look up at then when driving by the ocean look at its beauty when walking down main street look at the glorious blue skies above you there is beauty in everything we just need to take time to recognize it -Free choice -Free will, what a gift...QueenyJMG

Delight in time spent...

I delight in your company always left feeling better then last time never enough is how i feel wanting more ,wanting more yes wanting more i listened to the words you said i heard the beat of your heart i felt thee warmth of your smile i admire i adore i appreciate the friendship that has been built and grown between us i miss you when you go i carry your words of encouragement with me and i wear them as if a shield of armour that protects me from all bad things ...QueenyJMG

Blue Skies...

Blue Skies Sunshine day -days like this send me soaring into the great beyond i find myself smiling bigger, laughing louder,feeling better about life in general
Love abounds from every pore its flows from my being i feel as if the Lord had made this day special for me and wrapped it in blue sky ribbon...run wild run free run long and back to me.---Enjoy...QueenyJMG

Simply Amazing...

I am amazed by the splender of your love you give me so much and I offer so little in return I see the work of your hands I am humbled by your glory you hold me and keep me i am yours for all eternity i walk with boldness and confidence you give me wings to fly ...I am made to be yours

Inspired...

You inspire my lips to smile you inspire my heart to love ,your therapeutic words give life to my soul you give rest to my aching heart my eyes tear not from sadness but from joy.You bring happiness when i need it most...QueenyJMG

Love Deeply ...

I do love deeply with no regret there are many levels to my love Motherly, Godly,Friendship,Sisterly,and Romantic LOVE I love with care,compassion,conviction and passion I soar to great heights to achieve happiness among those I love ,at times I have hurt those I love as well with no intent but hurt is hurt whether planned or done by the mere stupidity of my words or actions it is never anything I want to do ever.If I have hurt you by loving you I am truly sorry I Love You still...Until QueenyJMG

Put back the pieces ....

We all are afraid to love deeply for fear of being hurt or falling on our faces I would rather try and fail then to never have the hope in something great I choose to have my heart be wide open and if it gets trampled beaten and broken so be it I tried I took a chance sometimes you win sometimes you fail but one will never know if they don't allow love to settle and grow as big as it can . I will not shatter your heart but help you put back the pieces I LOVE YOU MADLY...QueenyJMG

Feeling Sad ...

Was feeling sad for being married 20 + years and never really been known by my husband there are many facets to me he has never seen or cared to see i am tolerable annoyance is what i felt like .Sad to not feel loved,needed,or wanted.I was down for a long time having felt unworthy i now realize his love or lack of love doesn't define me i can walk away knowing i tried the best i could he didn't accept me.So i hurt some but not enough to ruin my love for someone else that will choose to accept it one day...QueenyJMG

Better person...

I want people to walk away from knowing me being a better person from our friendship maybe that I gave them insight,encouragement,love something of value as I value them I invest in friends.... my time,my love ,my heart I feel honored to be given the opprotunity to be let into the lives of many...QueenyJMG

Yes I know...

Yes I do know I am loved I didn't realize how much and I am sorry for that I choose at times to find myself undeserving of an amazing fairytale love it doesn't have to be rainbows n butterflies but it is understanding communication and a compromise to "agree to disagree" but in all this I know it is LOVE... You give ear to my needs ,love to my heart & complete joy life ..whatever this ends up as I am your friend forever love starts small ,builds big, and lasts forever in my heart & KNOW YOU ARE LOVED BY ME...QueenyJMG

Smiles...

Smiles why would you not wear one ? The joy brought to others by one simple upturn of the lips is immeasurable i understand there are times when a smile seems almost impossible to muster under the circumstance but when it's all over we must remind ourselves {sigh} an other day Blessed to be alive let me try to bring as much joy as i can to the lives of others weather it's feeding the hungry,clothing the needy,or giving a smile to anyone who passes in front of me.It costs nothing but means everything SMILE...YOU ARE LOVEDQueenyJMG

Blessed,Happy & Just Plain Honored

Easter puts things into perspective on a spiritual level for me, washed clean ,made new, forgiven of all my sins and all i have to do is accept it how easy is that ? To be given such an amazing gift and know all i have to do is receive. We all beat ourselves up feeling unworthy at times but i say to know that someone loved me enough to die for me doesn't make me any more worthy but it does put value of myself that i thought i never deserved.We all have Value, Meaning ,Worthiness in the eyes of a KING... that brings great honor to be known as His QueenyJMG

Come walk with me...

Come walk with me and take my hand forever wilt thou stay? to hold me close and love me long forever and a day...QueenyJMG

Happy to hear your voice again...

You know i have missed you & being incommunicado with you my heart died a little at the lack of contact between us,i understand now what the rational behind your absence was and i am glad to have you back where you belong (in my ear) you please me beyond all measure you are a great source of joy in my life never take that away again i need you like i need the air i breathe is that clear enough ? QueenyJMG

Happy Again..

Okay I have to decided to be HAPPY AGAIN,happy with myself and realize that I will be content either in the arms of the man I love or sitting alone on the beach the circumstances of my life do not define me. In all thy circumstances be content...worry about nothing pray about everything .It will all fall into place and I will be exactly where I need to be.QueenyJMG

Your eyes...

The love i see in your eyes so evident the smile on your face makes me feel wanted the tone of your voice makes me feel loved, i want to touch you, hold you ,to keep you but time and distance keeps me here for now until the time is right your love will continue to grow in my heart QueenyJMG

Good Conversation....

With you i have unending easy conversation you leave me wanting more,the days we don't talk i miss the joy you give me i always beam with happiness after our 5 minute or 5 hour conversations i just wanted you to know how i treasure you i think of you often ...QueenyJMG

I will not say good bye I will say see you soon good bye holds a finality to it which i do not accept see you soon holds a hope of reconcilation ,open arms warm embrace soft gentle kisses -Yes See You Soon...QueenyJMG

Will You...

Sunlight - shine bring your beauty ,show me the treasures of your light ,radiate your glory upon me ,make me wise to your ways, draw me into you, surround me with your warmth ,keep me ,protect me ,dream me,breathe me,allow no harm to befall me,love me as i love you...QJmg

Romantic Kinda Love...

We all search for a romantic kind of love we all want to be someones "everything" thier all thier one and only true love we all need to look into the eyes of our lover and just know ...the shape of thier heart feel complete, feel special, feel like they were the KING and had won the Queens heart and every treasure paled in comparison to her love Her love is of value and is immeasurable once bestowed QueenyJMG

Heartfelt Smiles

I smile because I can life has not made me so embittered that I can not Smile i have lots to be thankful for i have loved and been loved i wake up everyday is that not reason to have joy to share your happiness with others yes we're gonna have bad days yes we're gonna feel pain yet it doesn't mean we have to wallow in our grief LIFE GOES ON LIFE GET'S BETTER sorrows of today will not follow us around for the rest of our lives Grieving lasts for night but your joy will come in the daybreak...IT IS NEVER HOPELESS QueenyJMG

Today...

I died a lil today my Heart was left with a part of it taken left empty i did this i let it get to this i deserve nothing less then my empty heart i hurt a good man i let him walk away i never wanted him to go but i can only pray that he will return one day...QueenyJMG

So Sorry...

I'm so sorry i didn't live up to what you wanted you're right we need to take care of our own issues we have going on ,before we could ever pursue anything more i will remain loyal in my love to you meaning i hold you always in my heart be safe, be loved, be blessed but mostly be HAPPY... QueenyJMG

I want to kiss you hold your face in my hands and gently passionately kiss your lips i want to breath all the love i have into you to let you know you are loved by me i want to envelope your soul i want hold you in my arms forever safe and loved QueenyJMG

Can't stop...

I can't stop loving you i can't get you out of my head you are so perfect for me i am so perfect you i hate this thing that keeps us apart , i look into your eyes i see love i feel your love i only pray that u see and feel mine in return I AM YOURS AS LONG AS YOU WILL HAVE ME...QueenyJMG

My Heart ..Your Hands..

My heart is held in your hands cherished loved made safe protected even though we are far we are close as two people can be i can't say why things end up as they do but i live life with no regrets if i have loved it was meant to be at the moment in time and if it is meant to be it shall. Love never fails or disappoints only leaves you wanting more, to give more and to recieve more my Heart is yours always I LOVE YOU ENDLESSLY...QueenyJMG

Sat here thinking of you the smiles brought the laughter shared the tears shed together and i always come away with this complete sence of inner peace and joy i feel refreshed and renewed from time spent with you it feels like when i sit in the sun and it gently kisses your face it envelopes your soul makes feel loved well just had to say it and You know to whom i am refering...YES YOU...hugs & gentle kisses-QueenyJMG

Southern California..i love it

just came home from driving down PCH(pacific coast highway)at sunrise no less as i driving i see the sun rising in my rear view mirror as i see it start to shine on the water like a million tiny diamonds waiting to be snatched up and placed upon my head like a crown i love SOUTHERN CALIFORNIA nothing but death can make me depart from my west coast im so blessed beyond measure it's unfathomable to partake of such beauty and know this is far less then what awaits us in heaven I CAN ONLY IMAGINE...QueenyJMG

Let me love you...it couldn't be

I never meant for my life to be turned upside down in my late thirties and yet it is all because i wasn't afforded the ability to love you ,All you had to do was accept my love but you turned it down blindly you never allowed yourself to be happy you were too busy living in your world of hatred and betrayel i wasn't the betrayer yet felt the wrath of your anger.Well it's said it done it's over my LOVE will no longer be offered to you it will grow here in my heart ready to be given to another your loss shall be his gain....QueenyJMG

Finally back online i have made some new friends that have become quite etched into my heart and mind when i think of them they compell me to SMILE and BEAM WITH JOY ...QueenyJMG

Yesterday was such a Perfect California Day I saw myself walking hand n hand down My beautiful Main Street with Someone Special Pacific Ocean as the backdrop Smiling hands swinging Heart about burst from all the Joy I am experiencing ... (sighhhhh) Soon very Soon QueenyJMG

I called to you...

I called to you and you came in my time of need you held me ,whispered in my ear that you loved me,you dried my tears,made me sigh,gave me happiness i know not how long i will have you but for this time i am truly grateful thank you for loving me...QueenyJMG

Someone once told me I was a very complicated person which kinda took me by surprise but I guess if having Emotions,Opinions,and the Need to express myself is being complicated so be it. I'm just trying to make the best out of a most unbearable situation with a SMILE on my face I'm not trying to be swallowed by my grief any longer I have been down too long.I am ready to move forward with good people in my life I have no need for anyone that makes me feel bad about myself  I offer friendship to all who ask and love to all that chose to accept..QueenyJMG ❤

I must have sighed a thousand sighs last night,thinking about you thinking about how i wanted to be anyplace but here at the moment,pushed down a million tears to realize that sadness is a temporary feeling to temporary situation as long as i can wake up the next day with a Smile on my face realizing the sun will SHINE on me again...i can never lose;like lil orphan Annie always sang the sun will come out tomorrow ;) QueenyJMG

Thinkin.....♪♫♩♩♬

*I had you on my mind which brought a Smile to my lips and a skip to my step,There was something almost transportive in those thoughts I had this lingering thought that You may have been even thinking of me at the exact moment and our Souls were dancing together sharing space awaiting for our lives to cross other then for the brief minutes we meet here and there.Just a thought...QueenyJMG